I think it’s about time I come to terms with my problem. I’m one step closer today. I have told another soul about my problem. It’s nice to know that I have someone to talk to. If anything I think it has made us a little closer. I feel strangely relieved as if the huge weight on my back has lightened a bit.
Happy birthday… to me! I am no where I expected to be. You see, I had my life all planned out when I started high school. I was to be married by age 25 and maybe have a kid or two. Well, I’m no where closer to being married. I haven’t even found love yet. Here’s to the next 25 years. May I find love and happiness. Cheers!
Woohoo! I had a pretty good day today. I ditched work and my classes. Sigh. I had too. I needed a break. I took a nice long walk down Pasadena. With the sun shinning through the clear blue sky, it was beautiful. I don’t usually like walking, but today was an exception. I wasn’t afraid, I didn’t have any panic attacks. I guess paxil was working afterall. I wouldn’t need paxil if I was okay about myself. I still haven’t come to terms with it. I was so close to telling my little sister tonight. I wonder what tomorrow would’ve been like if I did. Someday… Honor, courage and commitment. Hoo-wah.
I wasn’t able to dress up for Halloween. I was going to borrow my friend’s Army camouflage uniform but I couldn’t find the right moment to ask. I had also thought about bribing a Marine to borrow his uniform but I didn’t have the guts to ask. Continue reading Halloween